What if we allowed ourselves to take up space & to be fully seen? What if we allowed ourselves to totally strip away the conditioning, the masks, the people pleasing, the good girl, the hiding, the dimming, the shrinking. What if we could strip away all of that, and for the first time learn what it feels like to walk out of the shadow and to just stand in the fullness of who we are.
This is something I have been practicing lately. So far in my life I have been the people pleaser, shying away and dimming myself to make others comfortable, never rocking the boat too much, always caring for others first. I have tried to break free from this multiple times and I I have believed that I have done this, but in reality, I merely stripped away one thing, only to quickly turn around and put on a different mask, or step into a different cage. Still carrying myself in a way that allowed me to blend in, feel accepted, and approved of by society… All the while ignoring the constant whisper of my soul that said, “It may look different on the outside, but baby, it still keeps you tamed, shut down, and hidden.”
2021 has been different though. This year I have felt a rising in my soul that said “no more of this.” I have felt myself really rattling the cages… growing, transforming, expanding to the point that I can no longer fit into the spaces that I have previously contained myself in. I have started to feel my soul, my high self, my essence, prepping to bust wide open.
Simultaneously my ego has been fighting harder than ever to stay in the false safety of where I have been and who I have been up to this point. I keep hearing, “I’m not ready” and all the what ifs and excuses as to why I should stay hidden. The not enough, and the too much, the comparison, and the fear…oh the fear of wondering if I actually reveal myself to the world, and I stand in all of my light and power, will I be accepted? Will I be chosen?
I keep worrying about perfection, about looking put together, about being liked or the right fit for everyone…but a truth & knowing that is slowly melting into my cells is that I don’t actually want to, nor care to, be for everyone… because if I am for everyone, then I can not be fully me. I can either abandon myself and be accepted by most… or I can abandon the need to be for everyone and instead accept myself, choose myself, and be fully me.
So this is my public declaration, my choice, to abandon the need to be for everyone. This is my public declaration that I am choosing me, I am accepting all of me. I know to do this I must unify my ego and my essence. I must rebuild trust with myself so my ego can lower her defenses, so she can realize that no longer will I abandon her or choose others wants and needs at the expense of my own.
I must cultivate an intimate relationship with myself. I must slip into the void, tune in to the whispers of my soul, and tune out the noise that is all around. It is a nurturing that needs to happen, an overflow of self-love that I must pour into myself. It is time for my cocoon. Creating my own safe space, to explore, play, and relearn myself.
As I begin the journey into myself, I share this to invite you to join me in the adventure. To go against the grain with me…to begin to rediscover who you are at your core, so we can create a world full of people who are awake, alive with passion, and unapologetically themselves. Can you imagine how different our world would be? How much beauty would surround us if we all stood in our power, our magic?
As we let ourselves off the hook, and learn to free ourselves from previous conditioning, let us also give space for others to free themselves. We must be aware of the expectations, boxes, and cages that we unconsciously place on other people, and hold space for them to show up along their journey and in their destination as who they truly are. Knowing and believing that there is more than enough space for all of us here, to fully shine and radiate, and it is needed more than ever before. Together, let us answer our soul’s callings, and work on stepping into the truest and purest expression of ourselves.